To small to be plus size yet to big to be skinny but why can't I just be Emily

So I have struggle with my weight for years. I don't remember a time where I was skinny enough to not worry every minute about what goes in my body. I hate gaining weight but in the last five years thats all I have been doing. I guess after my mother found out about me only eating 20 cheerios a day and helping me stop obessessing over my weight I have been finding out who I am. But thats my problem I don't know who I am. I know I am 19 and I am going to find myself but its hard. I work at a plus size fashion store and most of the women tell me I am to small to be working at the store or they tell me that I need to gain a little more weight before I understand their struggle. They make a few jokes about me thinking I am fat or they laugh at me because I have a dream of being a plus size model. I laugh and I laugh even more after I put together an outfit that looks like it just step off of a runway. The best part is when they come back and asked for the "lil skinny girl". Sometimes I wish it was that easy and I was the "lil skinny girl" to most of the world but I am not I am the "fat girl". I remember homecomings not being able to find the proper dress because my breasts were to huge or being the biggest braidsmaid in my cousin wedding. I have had trouble for years to find an amazing swim suit for a low price but we all know thats impossible. Growing up plus size with no money to buy a lot of the clothes you want is hard so if I could be that "lil skinny girl" I would be her in a heartbeat. But i am not that skinny girl I am the girl with the dream of becoming a large force in the plus size scene. i am also the girl who will someday become a plus size model. I might be finding myself but I knwo what I want. I have always had this dream. Talking to girls who are like me. No I am not the biggest person in the world but I am also not the smallest. I am overweight but not 100 pounds overweight. I am the girl who is in the middle. But I won't be there for long. If you understand me please comment. I will be writing a new post everyday.

Hipster Plus Size Ootd

Hello I am so happy to be back. So I wanted to show you guys my outfit on Staurday when I was hanging with my friends. I wore my shirt that I got from H&M for 23 dollars. I also wore a pair of black high waisted shorts. I also wore a pair of black toms. I wore a black hat that I felt in love with.
 I hope ypu guys like the fit.

No More Zoe Please Say It Ain't So

So today I have been hearing that my favorite fashion show i being cancelled due to poor ratings. I have been watchimg the show since season one and is very sad that the show will no longer come on but I am not that surprised. Once Brad left the show lost a lot of spark. The show now have all yes men and people who kiss her ass to get to the top. I miss when there where people who worked for her who always had their own minds. The show will be missed but it won't be the last time we see the stylist, designer, blogger, and chairman of shoedazzle. So I guess I will watch season one and watch her wear her fur coat in the summer. I do not own this picture I got it from

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My Two Favorite Nail Polish To Use For Spring

So today is a rainy day in Dallas so what else better to do than tell everyone about your must have nail polish. I love love love this polishes for spring. Love&Beauty scented is amusing when you are looking for a mint green color. I wear this color more than any other color I have. Now for as my rose pink color its called Sugar Sheek and its from the color club. I wored this color on my nails for easter because it went pretty well with my dress that day. I love this color for spring also. I got both of these color from my mother a month ago and she told me they were only $7.00 all together. So comment if you like.

Loving My Extra Curves and Who I Am

So today I just wanted to talk about why I choose to start my blog. From my other two blogs you can see that I love fashion and beauty but it took me a while to start loving my curves. I have struggle with my weight for years and I never fully loved myself or the way I looked. There would times where I would not eat for days.It took time but I just realized that I will never be a size to and with opening up to my friends and family I could finally be happy with who I was with their help and support. So last year when my best friend Destiny showed me some plus size fashion gurus on youtube I was hooked. I started getting more into fashion and things that work for my curves. Instead of doing my homework my senior year I wanted to go on blogs and see what was the hottest makeup for prom and what dresses would best fit me. Fashion and Beauty took over my life. This year I started my first year in college and as I was in math class I wanted to be shopping for someone or even doing someone makeup. So at that moment I decided I was going to become a makeup artist after I train myself the best way I can. I also said I was going to start my blog and someday become a plus size fashion stylist with my own plus size store someday. I will start taking business classes this summer but right now my life is blogging and learning everything about fashion I can learn. I want girls to come to my blog and be able to interact with me. If they need advice or If I need advice. I'm excited for this time in my life and I can't wait for you guys to follow me and my journey in living out my dreams. So leave comments and If you have a blog I would love to cheack it out.

My Fun Makeup Look Of The Day

Hello Everyone today I just wanted to show you guys my makeup for today. I had fun doing my makeup and using my new eye shadows I got today. I used a hot pink color that came in my Ultra color padlet and also a purple that cmae with it. I love my sliver that I used that also came with my padlet. Because I have small eyes its sometimes a lot harder to do my eyes. I used my elf eyeliner that only costed a $1.00 at target and Maybellines Falses Volume Express. I used my new Flower's foundation and BD3 Flowers blush. I used Maybellins mineral power in the darkest shade it comes in. I will be doing a review tomorrow on my new products I got from Flowers so please comment.

My Plus Size Easter Outfit

Hey everyone I just wanted to show you you guys my plus size easter outfit. I wore an pink color blocked dress I had got from target for $15 dollars. I also wore my sliver sandals I got from forever 21 for $12.99. I loved my look and I hope you guys do to. So comment.